In God We Trust, Part One

Grace Moment by Moment-weekly column
Control is an illusion we try to convince ourselves we possess. What I learned is that we are never "in control" of anything. God, however, is "in control" of everything.
Here's an example: When Dad was placed on Hospice and I was confronted with his daily declining health I tried to keep my apartment clean and spotless. I reasoned that how clean my apartment was determined how much I had managed to deal with the looming reality that when Dad died I would be all alone. I didn't want to cope with all the murky memories, good and bad, of our lifelong relationship.
However after Dad's death, I began reading a journal I had kept during his prolonged illness. I discovered a simple, but profound Truth: while I was trying to comfort and prepare Dad to let go, he had done the same for me (Matthew 6:25-34).
In accepting that Truth I surrendered my will to God's Plan. True freedom of spirit, I found, lies in our willingness to trust God to know what is best for us even when it clashes with what we want or think we need.
I still struggle to trust. I find trusting God to be easier than trusting humans, because humans have become so morally flawed, they have grown careless about keeping their word. But I still try, because I know on that day when Christ returns, all of this pain-ravaged world will be set to rights again (I Corinthians 13:10-13).